there is so much to ponder....i'm 6 weeks into the wildest adventure of my life. the past weeks have given me my best and worst moments of my life. nothing anyone can tell you, or any book or website could prepare you this ride.
Logan is perfect. A miserable pregnancy, horrendous labor and surgery was more than enough suffering to be blessed with the perfect baby. I have to brag a moment because Brian and I firmly believe this is a gift from God and nothing we had anything to do with! He's got the best little disposition and quirky little attitude. He's content with most anything. Only when he's really uncomfortable will he begin to give you dirty looks but hardly any crying. The past week has been rougher though. He was diagnosed with RSV (infant bronchitis) this week. He's been slightly more fussy while battling the coughing and constant sniffles. He's got to feel really awful yet he still finds the strength to play and smile. He's a happy, contented child and for that we are totally grateful!
I'm recovering rather well from all the trauma. Though without sleep and proper nutrition my body is screaming for rest. Logan also sleeps really well but I'm a bear, I need like 10 hrs a night. Prior to baby I slept for a minimum of 8 hrs each night. If I had even a few nights of 6-7hrs I was good for nothing. Yet, God provides the strength I need when I need it. And if I have a breakdown Brians there to coach me through it. Brian and I are both so clueless about caring for a baby that I think we've shed more tears than Logan has! Better and better each day we're growing and adapting.
I'm cherishing every moment of his tiny-ness. He'll be grown before I know it and the cute innocence of it all will be only memories.Don't take this the wrong way but recently someone asked if I could imagine life without him. Well yeah, I can. Life without baby is still very vivid in my mind. The freedom, energy, vitality and rest are taunting me. I do not wish to be without the little guy but I do wish for more mobility. I'm thankful for the coziness of my couch this winter but long for warm spring days when we can get outdoors!
Enjoying Life Now
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I've decided that enjoying life is about taking things one day at a time.
It's easy to say, but hard to do. Especially for me.
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