what we want...

We humans strive so hard for what we want. We toil our lives away, countless hours striving for our dreams. I've come to realize I do not know what I want and should stop trying to figure it out. This methodology sounds a little off..stay with me....All too often we achieve what we've worked so hard for only to find it leaves us wanting.


God said in the book of Jeremiah, 'i know the plans i have for you, not plans to harm you but give you hope and great future'. His plans are more than fathomly imaginable. Its certainly not what I would choose....or is it?

We limit our own understanding of what He can provide by putting God in the 'american dream' box when He's way bigger.

welcome aboard

So life is beginning to normalize. we're going into our 7 mo of parenting with two teeth and partially mobile baby. I decided it was time to attempt reading a book. I began Animal, Vegetable, Miracle a few nights ago. Honestly I'm not sure I like it. Their one of my people, they hug trees and such. Its a rather frustrating book to read how horrible it is to buy bananas and how people don't like to think their food comes from dirt. I guess its positive for the general population's awareness of current food issues. Those of us who've been composting, growing veg and buying local for years embrace the idea of our way of life becoming mainstream. We don't mind there are more crowds at the farmer's market....

What gets me pondering though, is how is one supposed to live this sustainable lifestyle? I mean with it becoming hip and all. It means there are more people doing it and more opinions. I'm supposed to buy local right? SO I go to the farmer's market down the street, oh wait I drove my car (hybrid of course). No, I should have rode my bike...no no, I should walk! With everyone tapping into the environmental movement its hard to know what to change, your light bulbs maybe? Its enough to cause a migraine. I grown my own garden, but were my seeds local? How am I to till the soil without using a gas powered polluting tiller? I can only water it with a rain barrel or grey water...... How is a normal person supposed to make their own cleaning products, buy local, grow their own foods, sleep on organic mattresses with bamboo sheets, eat from compostable plates, drink from BPA free-reusable bottles, take bags to the store, remember it must all be organic, drive a hybrid or bike everywhere....don't forget to recycle! its exhausting. There is even a choice of what type of compost to use: worm compost, heated compost, manure, old fashioned-throw-it-in-a-pile-of-leaves compost.

Those of you just now getting on the 'green fad', welcome aboard. Its a dirty ride (on a second hand bike, of course).

approaching 6 months!

it's been over a year now since this journey began. it seems like each year Brian and i are doing something new and different, finally some roots! We're masters of transition; always moving, job hoping, embarking on new adventures.....now we're the ones being taken for a ride by this little being named Logan. Currently he's eating food, rice cereal, peas, sweet potatoes, pears...ect. He seems to like more savory stuff, not sure where he got that! We've also added another member of the family: Rocky the boxer-lab-hound-beagle. Yeah, he barks all the time. The cats are perturbed to say the least. My etsy store is flourishing and I'm thoroughly enjoying being out of the professional world. I've also started gardening again. This year I'm doing: potatoes, lettuce, carrots, zucchini, heirloom tomatoes, peas, beans, cucumber, cantaloupe, garlic, peppers and butternut squash! So exciting! We've committed to buying as much local food as possible....
check out the www.charlottetailgatemarket.com and the www.mounthollyfarmersmarket.com both awesome places.....happy growing!